desabafo pra ninguem

that moment when you feel you're not important, when you feel you don't have a "gang", although most part of the time you don't think you need one... you know deep down inside these thoughts are only made for you not to feel bad, for you to feel superior... when you're not.

you know there are people who really care about you, they really do, and they love you, and they would suffer if something bad happened to you. but, while you're alright, you're just... you. 

there comes a moment when they just don't invite you anymore...

and sometimes you think, "how come can all these people not love me, not want me all the time around them, how come can they not notice how cool i am..." and the only answer i see is, i'm not that cool, i'm not that smart, or maybe i am, and they are the problem, but... what is easier to happen?

sometimes you feel that even the ones near you, can't stand you all the time, when you're boring, and annoying, and you notice that's just you. 

and even when people seem to like you at first glance, because you make a good impression, they get desappoined right after... what is it? i guess i really need a psicologist... 

and it's everytime, everytime. i guess i'm just not good enough to be among people, no strong enough to handle a social life...  

that's it guys, i'm controled, i'm in control

kisses